Sunday, 2 October 2016

CHANGING AGAIN


So I've written a few 'life update' posts before when something has either changed or theres a new chapter of my life starting, and today I feel as though it's this post covers both of those. As some of you may know, I've just graduated from university after completing a degree in Adult Nursing. I'm someone that doesn't like to quit and will persevere through something even if it's maybe not right for me or I'm not totally happy, because I like to get to the end and say I've finished. 
However, back in my second year of my nurse training, I realised that this maybe wasn't the career path for me and that maybe I should quit because it wasn't what I expected. I wasn't quite sure what I didn't like about the course in particluar , but I just knew that it wasn't right for me and wasn't making me happy. Don't get me wrong, I love working with people and helping others, but just the whole job role and pressures from university made me realise that it wasn't the path I wanted to follow. After thinking about quitting for a long time, I thought that I would carry on anyway and continue the course, because even if I didn't become a nurse after university, at least I would still have a degree qualification and that counts for a lot on it's own. It also helped that I had amazing university friends and housemates supporting me through the whole time, and without them being there I definitely wouldn't have carried on. 


Another year went by and I had nearly finished the degree, and all of my other course friends had either been given their first nursing job to start or were currently applying for them. Because I felt very pressured to do the same even though I didn't really want to, I then applied for a nursing job too and thought 'I'll just try it and see how it goes'. My family were happy with this decision and everyone was saying that I should at least try nursing for a bit as I might change my mind once I start the job and love it. So I applied for a job, got offered the job and was due to start in the next couple of weeks as a newly qualified nurse. That was the plan anyway....



After going on holiday with my friends recently and finally having the time to reflect and relax after the hardest three years of training, I decided that I wasn't going to start the job. I've decided this because the degree wasn't making me happy, and I was only following everyone else's path even though it wasn't the one I wanted to take. Sometimes it's so hard not to give into pressure, but I've now realised I need to focus on myself and my own happiness rather than trying to make everyone else happy. I'm not sure what exactly I'm going to do following on from this, probably get a temporary job whilst I think about what I really want to do, but at least I'm happy.

I'm not saying that I will never go back to nursing in the future, but thats the beauty of that type of job...there will always be jobs and options available, and now that I've got the degree qualification, I've got that for life and can always go back to into it.

But even though this is a big decision in my life right now, the main reason I wanted to share this is to remind you that everybody makes mistakes in life and there are lots of people who make the wrong choices with their career, personal life or relationships, but it's okay! You should think about what you really want and there is always time to change direction, so don't ever think that 'this is it' if you don't want that to be it. You only get to live once, and you should live happy. I'm not saying that you should quit and give up, but don't do something or stay in a situation to make everybody else happy. If you have good people in your life like I definitely do, then they will support you through whatever you decide.

 I'm excited to see whats coming next!






What I'm wearing:
Coatigan - Zara 
T-shirt - Zara 
Jeans - Topshop 
Shoes - Topshop 
Bag - Zara 


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